The Different Faces of Me

"When a person is really really into you...
he will find ways to make time for you,
NO EXCUSES!"

Work is becoming stressful nowadays. I used to love to work and do things there. All have changed when I started training for the company. Its almost a month since the training started and I am feeling so exhausted and tired when I get home. I don't usually sleep early but since the training started I get sleepy at around 8pm. I love watching movies but since the training started, I fall a sleep during a good movie. Ergh! I can't forgive myself for doing that.

All the things I used to love are slowly going away. Is this maturity? Is this the effect of having a job? Or am I in a period of adjustment? I don't know... all I know is that I miss the old me.

I miss everything now...

Our relationship is going smoothly the past few weeks and I don't know that there become a sudden change. Was it me or him? Am I being so pressured about my work, my family and love life? I don't know.. I just want to have a break from everything. I want to see him...

I miss the times when we cuddle together.. when he's sweet to me.. the times when he would spend time with me. *sigh*

What's wrong with me? What's going on with my life?
I miss blogging it makes me feel a little relief.

I miss you baby. I hope you could read this...

Since I have started my work, I am feeling like I have left my life. I couldn't do much of what I can do before. I miss playing the game of Ragnarok. I have my family there in the guild name of Armada-Goonz. I am so lucky to have them and I must say that we are all in one family. I miss the good old times when we all participate in the different events, the guild sieges, the times when we spend our weekends together just to play for the common game that we all love.

When my training started, I feel so tired when I get home. Sometimes, I feel sleepy when I get home or sometimes when I watch movies, I could fall a sleep during a good movie. Aww, I love watching movies but I can't help it. I wanted to do the things that I used to love before...

Last Monday, my boss asked us to study Hiragana. He told us to study it after lunch and we had to know the whole alphabet by 5pm. So we only had 4 hours. It was unsuccessful though. He was a bit disappointed that he told us that we should know both Hiragana and Katakana the next day.

I felt that I couldn't make it. I stayed up late just to know everything I could. To make everything short. I can now write Hiragana and Katakana after a day of practicing it.

So here's my japanese name...

ヘイシル ダヤン タン
he i shi ru da ya n ta n

I am so proud of myself! haha

It's Wednesday and I am feeling so lazy. I still have a hangover of yesterdays' exam. I woke up at around 6 in the morning. I thought it was only 3am because it was very dark outside. I look at my cellphone and check the time. It was the time that I should get out of the bed. My body is being pulled by my bed and I don't want to get up but I have to. The Katakana and Hiragana kept playing inside my head and suddenly, my phone vibrated and had a little exchange of messages from my friend, Ian.

I told myself "get up! get up! you're going to be late.." After a couple of minutes, I have finally decided to go down and have my breakfast. After breakfast, I hurriedly get into the shower and went to the office. (nakakaboring and nakakatamad bumangon sa umaga noh?)

Wee, I wasn't late for work. I was even early by 5 minutes. Good for me! My officemates and I had our coffee at Figaro and bought our sandwiches and McDonalds. After that, I studied, read, and memorized some of the important terms in PeopleSoft. I lost my feeling of reading and wanting to learn when my boss asked me to join him and my other officemates to go somewhere. Err.. so when I went back to the office I am writing this on a piece of paper so when I get home all I have to do is to type everything.

So much about being bored at work. Till my next free time! Ciao!

As I am looking at the upper right calendar of my blog. I felt that I am too busy these past few days or even weeks that I am not able to write here. I know I am just writing nonsense things but I love to post about my ideas and feelings.

I hope that you guys would bear with me. Thank you for taking time to read my blog. *hugs*