The Different Faces of Me

Somewhere between heartaches and waiting,
comes another chance to be found by someone
who can show you that,

you don't deserve to be just an OPTION,
but..

THE ONLY CHOICE...

My birthday is fast approaching. I don't know if I am going to be happy or sad about it. Right now, I don't feel like my birthday is going to come.

Last month, I am excitedly planning about my birthday. I wanted to spend the day with my boyfriend. But I am not sure if he wants to be part of it. *sigh* Does being in love makes people feel this way? I love him, he loves me?! but.. but.. I don't know what's happening now.

I wish my birthday would just pass by like an ordinary day. But a day without sadness and a day to make me feel alright. I don't wish it to be special.. I don't wish it to be memorable.. I just want it to pass like a day without sadness.. it doesn't have to make me happy but a day to make him happy.

Advance *tooot* birthday to me! (no, its not happy.. its not going to be..)

How will you know when you really love someone?

Its when you want him / her to be happy even if his / her happiness means

YOU ARE NOT PART OF IT...

I am feeling down when I wake up this morning. I feel like the world has turned its back on me. I wanted to be positive. I wanted to be happy but how can I? When i know that my happiness makes him sad.. I wanted him to be happy. I miss him a lot. But it seems like I am just nothing to him.

Does he really love me? Am I just blind to see that I am nothing to him? I somehow know that he loves me, even if its just a little bit. I would love to be loved by the one I love most but.. err.. I don't know.

Baby, if ever you could read this. I just want you to know that I love you so much...

"..the longer you stay with the things you don't really enjoy equates to every moment you lose with what could be a happy life.."

"When your feelings get strong for someone, it's always wise to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe.. a time to use your mind, to weigh the situation based on reason, not on emotion.. because the saddest thing that can happen is when someone falls in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship..

Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes be just an illusion..."

Panalangin
By: Moonstar 88

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka, makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko-oh
At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito
Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

At wala ng iba pang mas mahalaga
Sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig
Nating dal’wa…
Sana naman makikinig ka
Kapag aking sasabihin
Minamahal kita

Panalangin..

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka, makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko-oh
At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito
Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

At wala ng iba pang mas mahalaga
Sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig
Nating dal’wa
Sana naman makikinig ka
Kapag aking sasabihin
Minamahal kita…aaah

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka, makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko-oh
At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito
Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling
Mahal ko, iyong dinggin

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka, makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko-oh
At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito
Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Panalangin, panalangin...

I think... " True love waits... persists.. forgives... and sacrifices.. but sometimes, no matter how true love is, it will come to a point where it will get tired if its taken for granted.. abused.. and not appreciated.. so if you know someone who loves you, appreciate it before it says goodbye.."

Love is the most wonderful feeling, and so they say. But it is also the most powerful feeling that can make you happy and at the same time sad. It can hurt you if you don't play it right but it can give you so much happiness if you give it to the people who would love you back.

I never thought that I'd be so much exposed to love at the early age of twenty two. I have been in love a couple of times and I've been hurt several times. I don't regret any of it because each relationship made me stronger.

I am in love right now and at the same time hurt. The boy I love the most told me that his love for me is slowly fading. My whole world stopped and just like the sound of the gun *bang*, my tears fell slowly and my heart beats faster.. am I to loose this boy whom I tried to give everything I could? I can't think, I can't concentrate... I don't know what to do...

We're still together but the fear of loosing him makes me feel bad. He acts normal as if nothing is wrong. What was I to do?

Right now, I am trying to put a smile on my face and pretend that everything is alright..