The Different Faces of Me

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love,
and to let it come in."

- Morrie Schwartz
(Tuesdays with Morrie)

Yesterday was not a very good day to me. I had lots of problems and I had a hard time getting through the whole day. I felt like I'm the only person in the world. Spending time at the park made me feel a lot better. It made me think and realize things. I wanted to spend the day with someone. I badly needed a hug. But I have no one to turn to that time. I guess I could only be the one I can turn to or comfort myself. This is reality. This is the real world. Its so sad that the world become such a cruel place to live in.

Last night, some of my friends cheered me up and I would like to thank them for listening and being there for me. It did helped a lot. It made me feel a lot better.
Thank you for making me smile..

It's an enigma when you fail in love and accept that some good things never last...
suddenly you'll begin to see yourself as nothing... it's an agony to accept that despite the feelings you have, it's all not enough but when you love someone, you would do the hardest thing... and yes it's not going to be easy, but at least you know that what you felt was REAL..

In the end, you'll ask yourself "does it hurt?" then you'll close your eyes and whisper..
"its worth it.."

I was told not to hurt the heart of whom I love so much...
but when I was so busy taking care of that heart..
I never noticed..

My own was slowly dying..

What you'll need:

• beef patties
• shredded cabbage
• slices of cheese ( squared)
• bun
• ketchup
• mayonaisse
• tomatoes (cut)

• Fry Beef patties in a skillet
• Toast the buns, by putting it one by one on the skillet you used to fry the beef patties
• After that, set aside the bun (after toasting) then spread mayonaisse on top of the both buns (pair).
• Then, top it over with the beef patty. After putting on the beef patty, top it with the chesse, then tomatoes, after the tomatoes, followed with the cabbage, then ketchup, then top it with the pair of the bun.

Apology can never bring back the tears that had fallen.
It can't even let you forget the pain that you've felt
but it surely refreshes a wounded pride and relationship

What you'll need:

(For each sandwich)

• 2 slices of buttered bread
• 2 slices of boiled ham
• 2 tablespoons pineapple, chopped
• 1 tablespoon mayonnaise sauce

• Mix 1 teaspoon of pepper, 2 teaspoons of mustard and 1 teaspoon of salt with 2 yolks of egg.
• Add 1/2 tablespoon of vinegar.
• Add 1.5 cups of olive oil gradually, stirring constantly.
• As soon as the mixture thickens, thin it with a little more vinegar.
• Proceed until two tablespoons of vinegar, and all the 1.5 cups of oil are used.
• If the oil is added too rapidly, mayonnaise will curdle.
• Smoothness can be restored by taking the yolk of another egg and adding to it little by little.
• The curdled mixture.
• Mayonnaise should be stiff enough to hold its shape.

• Chop slices of ham very fine and mix with chopped pineapple and mayonnaise.
• Spread on both slices of bread, put together and press lightly.

What you'll need:

• 2 egg yolks
• 1 teaspoon melted butter
• 1 teaspoon lemon juice
• 1 cup shredded chicken
• Salt
• Pepper
• 1 teaspoon stock

• Cook the eggs thirty to forty-five minutes, in water just below boiling point, take out the yolks and mash as fine as possible.
• Add to these the melted butter and lemon juice, the finely chopped chicken, salt, pepper and stock.
• Mix all well together.
• A paste will be the result and with this very delicate sandwiches may be made.

I am feeling a little weird lately. All of the things and people that I love are too far away. I feel betrayed. Do I trust them too much that it lead to this?

I am feeling so alone. I wish I could find someone to understand and listen to me or just stand by my side..

I had let go of what I thought I owned...
It hurts, yes..
A lot actually..

but getting through each day made me realize that the world will just keep on turning...
and I have to continue breathing even if he's not around..

so I have to move on..
face the world after he stepped on it..
and prove that I can be better than what he used to see in me.

The whole morning was a mess. I've been hearing rumors about my friend who is spreading false statements. I guess she didn't realize that I'll know about it. It was so pathetic. Her actions was so weak and immature. Just because I was too busy to help her one time, and ALL I GET IS THIS? WTF! Is that her basis of a friendship? She's now ruining my good relationship with our other friends. I want to hate her.. but the more I think of it. I pity her for her poor actions. If she has issues with me, then go talk straight to me. I am not going to hurt you. Err.. why do people like this exist? They are parasites, they are only they when they need you but if they're done with you they'll just leave you alone plus they'll throw bad rumors about you. Nice one! But I am not affected. Stop it before it gets back on you...

Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes...
the person you want the most;

is the person that you're better off without

The call
By: Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

I've been thinking a lot lately. I wanted to find a new job. I'm not happy with my work anymore. My boss have favoritisms and he's just unfair at all times. I don't want to leave because of my friends there but my future will be stucked on a company who does not see my potentials. What should I do? I know my mom will be disappointed if I lose my job. She won't understand. Err.. how I wish things could go on nicely.

A philosophy professor gave one question for the final exam. He stood in front , touched his chair and asked: " using everything we've learned this semester, prove to me that this CHAIR DO NOT EXIST." The class finished over an hour but the student who's known for having low IQ, finished the exam for less than 1 minute. One week later, the results were posted on the board and the student who's known for being stupid got the highest. His answer consisted with just two words. "WHAT CHAIR?"

Moral: Do not over analyze or complicate things. Simplify and be happy!

I woke up this morning not feeling well, but what can I do? I have to go to the office to work. I had a very rough morning. Still thinking about the argument that happened the night before. I wasn't able to sleep well so I was a bit sleepy when I went to the office.

The morning training went okay until noon. We had the chance to exchange messages but it didn't go on so well.. I wish every thing's gonna be fine. I am scared because he's always telling me that one day if we're always like that.. he will leave me. I fear for that day to come. I just want to love him forever. I want to take good care of him.. but it seems like he's more into his friends. I know he should have the life but what about my happiness.. all i want is to see him.

I miss him so much...

What you'll need:

• ½ Kilo clams, Cleaned
• 1 onion, chopped
• 2 cloved garlic, minced
• 2 carrots, thinly sliced crosswise
• 3 stalks, celery, chopped
• 2 potatoes, diced
• 1½ cups clam juice or shrimp broth
• ½ tsp dried thyme
• 1½ cups whole milk
• Sea salt, optional, to taste
• Pepper, to taste
• 2 to 3 tsps spring onions, chopped
• 1 tbsp butter, cubed, optional

• Bring about 1½ cups water to a boil on high heat.
  
• Add clams.
  
• Reduce heat, cover pot and simmer until clam shells open. Discard any unopened shells.
  
• Strain the liquid to remove any sediment, then reserve.
  
• Remove clams from the shells then chop the meant. Set aside.
  
• Using the same pot, heat about 3 tablespoons oil over medium heat.
  
• Add the onions and garlic and sauté until onions are soft.
  
• Add the carrots, celery and potatoes and cook for about 5 minutes.
  
• Add clam juice (or shrimp broth), reserved liquid and thyme.
  
• Allow to boil then reduce heat, cover and simmer until potatoes are tender.
  
• Carefully transfer the mixture to a food processor to purée.
  
• Return the purée to the pot and heat through.
  
• Add the clam meat and spring onions.
  
• Adjust seasoning if needed.
  
• Turn off heat. Stir in butter, if using, for a creamier broth.
  
• Serves 4 to 5.

Philosophical Definition of Love:
"Love doesn't need dates, treats, gifts, money, or extreme kissing to realize that you're finally in Love. It only needs the COMFORT AND SECURITY OF HAVING A LIFETIME FRIEND IN THE PERSON despite all the consequences, the feeling DOES NOT die, instead it grows stronger, it must be it.."

Good morning!

I am now at the office and I am feeling so bored. We don't have a training this morning because the training room is being used by the HR for the New Hire's Orientation.

*Yawn* I am sitting in front of my laptop trying to read my module but I couldn't concentrate. waaah! ano bang nangyayari saken? huhu I'm missing my boyfriend. I wanted to watch him sleep again. I want to hear his soft snores. I want to whisper on his ears and I want to hear how he sleepily replies on the things that I say.

Err.. I got to get back and focus. I'll try to post something later..

What do I love about you?

1. I love the way you sing to me.. haha! pg hinaharana mo ako ang cute mo pg kumakanta ka..

2. I love it whenever you wrap your arms around me

3. I love watching you fall asleep. Ang cute cute mo tingnan.. haha

4. I love it when you make 'pacute'

5. I love it when I fall asleep on your shoulder, you make me feel safe and secured

6. I love it when whenever you walk me home.. kahit na alam kong pagod na pagod ka na hinahatid mo padin ako.. nakakamiss yun pg hinuhug mo ako doon sa kanto namin at snasabing love na love mo ako. takot ka pang matawag na 'lover boy' ng mga kapitbahay namin. haha

7. I love the way you take care of me when we eat. Grabe ka pinipilit mo akong umubos ng isang damakmak na pagkain na parang wala ng bukas.

8. I love the way you smile whenever I did something good. grr! i can't get you off my mind..

9. I love the way you take care of me whenever I am not feeling good. wah! salamat baby sa pagaalaga mo

10. I love watching you cook. Aba! pwede ka na maging daddy.. hehe

11. I love the way you hold me when we danced.. oha oha naaalala ko pa un 1st ever romantic dance naten sa computer shop mo n walang tao kundi tayo lng..

12. Lastly, I love the way you look at me in the eye and say 'I love you'
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Thank you baby for everything! I love you so much..

I'll Take Care of You
by: Richard Poon



i'll take care of you
don't be sad, don't be blue
i'll never break your heart in two
cause i'll take care of you

i'll kiss your tears away
i'll end your lonely days
all that i'm really tryin to say
is i'll take care of you

i want you to know that i love you so
i'm proud to tell the world you're mine
i said it before , i'll say it once more
you'll be in my heart, till the end of time

i'll take care of you
don't be sad, don't be blue
just count on me your whole life through
cause i'll take care of you

i want you to know that i love you so
i'm proud to tell the world , you're mine
i said it before, i'll say it once more
you'll be in my heart, till the end of time

i'll take care of you
don't be sad , don't be blue
just count on me your whole life through
cause i'll take care of you

cause i'll take care ...
i'll take care of you ...

After a couple of post of yummy recipes, I kept thinking about the yummy foods and drinks that I've been sharing the recipes with you.. so I paused for a while and had my merienda.

I am so sorry that I wasn't able to take pictures. Haha! I had pancit canton and the yummy egg sandwich with Iced tea!

I couldn't wait for dinner.. hahaha! Err.. I love to eat.
Okay, I have to go.. *ssshh* my baby is still sleeping in their house.. he might hear me because he still has his headset on.. and I've been talking like crazy whispering my ' i love you's' to him..

I missin' him so much.... i wish i could watch him sleep.. haaaay!

Err.. for a couple of weeks now, I've been craving for Chowking's Buchi. Since the day that we had that one lunch time, my officemates and I had this great craving for buchi.

Waaah! Now that I've been thinking about the buchi.. I wanted to make some.. but sad to say, I lack of ingredients right now... and I am too lazy to rush to the super market just to buy the said ingredients.

Help! Send me some buchi at home! hahaha...

What you'll need:

For the Dough:

• 1/2 k. galapong
• 1/2 cup sesame seeds
• cooking oil, for deep-frying

• 1/3 cup cornstarch
• 1 tbsp. all-purpose flour
• pinch of salt
• 00 g. langka(fresh or preserved), cut into cubes
• 1 cup Evaporated Milk

• 3 pieces eggyolks, slightly beaten
• 1/4 cup butter
• 1/2 tsp. vanilla

• Combine first six ingredients in a heavy saucepan. Cook stirring continuously over low fire. When thick, remove from fire and stir in eggyolks, butter and vanilla. Cook for about 2 min. more. Cool then set aside in a chiller.

• Knead galapong forming a cylinder and cut into 20 equal portions.
  

• Flatten into patties and put about 1 tbsp. of chilled filling in the center.
  

• Gather edges to the center, sealing well.
  

• Roll in sesame seeds and deep-fry in hot oil. Drain in paper towels and serve right away.

Egg Salad Sandwich

What you'll need:

• 4 eggs
• 4 tablespoons mayonnaise
• 2 teaspoons sweet pickle relish
• 2 tablespoons green onion, finely chopped
• salt to taste
• freshly ground pepper to taste

• Fill a small saucepan to cover with enough water to just cover eggs and bring to a full boil.
  

• Reduce heat to low and cover.
  

• Cook eggs for about 10 minutes.

• Remove from heat, drain, and immediately cool eggs with cold running water.

• Peel eggs and finely chop.
  

• Add mayonnaise, pickle relish,chopped onion, salt, and pepper and mix.

• Spread on bread of your choice.

• Garnish with lettuce (Optional)
  

Fruit Punch

What You'll need:

• 6 strawberries, fresh or thawed from frozen
• 1 apple, cored and sliced
• 1/2 orange, peeled and sectioned

" In orfer for one to move on,
you must understand what you felt...
why you felt it..
and why you should no longer feel it.."

Peach Pear Apple Juice

What you'll need:
1 apple, cored and sliced
2 peaches, remove seed
1 pear, sliced

Procedure:
Process through a juicer and serve.

Sparkling Tropical Fruit Juice

What you'll need:

• 1 kiwi, peeled
• 1 orange, peeled and sectioned
• 1/2 mango, peeled and sliced
• sparkling mineral water

• 3/4 lb. watermelon, seeded and diced
• 3/4 mango, peeled and diced, or 5 ounces can mango, drained
• 1 Tbs. plus 1 tsp. sugar
• 1/2 cup plus 3 Tbs. orange juice
• 3 Tbs. plus 2 tsp. water

Procedure:

Place the watermelon on a plate and freeze overnight.

Process watermelon and remaining ingredients in a food processor until liquid.

Serve in frosted glasses with a spoon and straw.

Learn..
... that when you plan to get even with someone, you're only letting that person to continue to hurt you.

Learn..
... that ignoring the facts do not change the facts.

Learn..
... that the easiest way to grow as a person is to surround yourself with people smarter than you are.

Learn..
... that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

And Learn..
... that life is tough , but you can be tougher...

It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to,
just make sure that when you stop crying,
you won't cry for the same reason anymore...

Hey! Its June 1 and its the first day of the month. I am feeling lazy to get up this morning because I lack of sleep. I wanted to rest but my mind won't allow me to.

When I got out of the bed, I hurriedly ate my breakfast and read a few chapters of my module ( I am studying PeopleSoft for work). After a couple of hours, my boyfriend and I had a small talk. Then its lunch time! We had Caldereta and Lumpiang gulay. Yummy noh? haha

The whole afternoon, I've been spending time chatting with my dad and boyfriend in YM. Well, as of now, I am watching my boyfriend sleep while im typing this..

Till next time..

I've been missing a lot lately since I started working. I am becoming a different person. I feel less time for me and my love ones but what can I do? This is part of the real world now. I hope that I could play everything right.

I miss blogging a lot. I wanted to share my daily experiences with you. Share the good memories that should be cherished and just a simple day at work.

I miss cooking too. I miss the feeling on how I can make other people smile with the dishes that I cook.

I miss spending time with myself.. fooling around and doing nothing at all.

I miss going out with my good old friends but they're all busy now.

oh, i hate this feeling of being lonely...

Always be My Baby
by: David Cook



We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

" Don't miss the chances that life is giving you to spend with people you value the most...

Remember, there are no REWINDS"

-Adam Sandler

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I totally agree with this, if we value our love ones. We should show them how much we care before its too late. Sometimes the little small things that we do mean a lot to other people.