i HATE myself..

Monday, December 31, 2007

Its been 22 years since I came into this world and it seems like I'm such a big mistake. Yeah, yeah I have my friends but whenever I talk to him it seems like I am being torn into billions of pieces. I know I have my imperfections. I also make mistakes. All I wanted is for him to be happy. But I am not sure if his happiness includes me. Does my existence makes a difference in his life? Do I make him happier? Or do I make him sad? This are just some of the questions that keeps coming out of my mind.

"Love isn't about someone else's perfect person, its about helping you to become the best person you can be..", this is my favorite love quote since I was in high school. I am not changing him to be perfect. I am not treating him as one of my Ex. I just want him to shape up his future. I know I am wrong in rushing him but what can I do? I feel so sad and lonely whenever I see him abusing his health and it really, really breaks my heart to see him like that.

Few hours from now, 2007 is about to leave. Tomorrow will be a new start. I just hope that before my book closes it chapters, everything will be alright. I hope I will feel better and feel good about myself because right now, I feel so down.

Posted by Deeanne at 4:01:00 PM  

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