The Different Faces of Me

Here is the analysis:

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Here is the analysis of the quiz that I took:

I took the next part of the quiz. Its about finding the real you. Anyway, here are the results /analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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masyado ata ako naaaliw sa quiz na ito! haha

Today has been a boring day. I have nothing to do but to lie down and try to find someone to talk to. I am feeling so sick. I didn't even have my appetite to eat my lunch a while ago. Everything i eat comes out.

I miss my dad. I miss the times when he used to take good care of me whenever I'm sick. I miss the times when someone will show me so much care and importance.

This is my first time to join this Meme. Thank you sis Maline for taggine me.

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17. qweddings.com
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19. shirleysdelight.com
20. TenaciousCreations.com
21. utada-online.net
22. valmg.com
23. wayfarerwings.com
24. xaviermedia.com
25. yimto.com
26. zbudapest.com

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Previous tagger: Beautiful and Happy

Rule #2: You now have to “tag” at least five people and encourage them to participate so that this thing spreads like a virus. Remember, though, that not everyone’s into these kinds of things, so don’t be upset if they don’t participate. Just simply replace your tag. Remember to tag blogs only and no pornographic ones as we do want to keep the integrity as a blogging community. Anyway, I have tagged the next persons:

• marcroger.com
• dakilang tambay
• tessa
• st.serenity
• twinkletoe

Rule #3: None.. Just have fun!

I had a very boring day today. I have nothing to do, no one to talk to. My sister have no classes today but I couldn't hang out with her because she's too busy studying for her exams tom. My boyfriend is out today with his friend. I am left alone with nothing to do. I was thinking of going to the mall but then, it isn't fun to go out alone. I am still having second thoughts of going out.

I then decided to cook lunch for us. I looked at the fridge and saw shrimps. (Its my sister's favorite) I asked my sister if how she wanted it to be cooked. She just answered 'anything as long as it is spicy' I was thinking of spicy gambas but then I am too lazy to peel the shrimps one by one. haha! So I cooked chili garlic shrimps. (Yummy!)

Here's the picture:

This is my first time to cook this. I just put everything that I think is part of the ingredients. Haha! Good thing that my little experiment was loved by my sister.

Sometimes we don't know why we bother to love,
when we know for a fact that it'll always be the same story...

chasing a heart that will never be ours and ours only..

begging for affection that will never be given..

sacrificing for a doubtful future..

and crying for the one who will never love us back.

Just Fine
by: Mary J. Blige

You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it’s something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh

Let it go……
Can’t let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, go do what you want to do
Can’t let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning
It’s been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
Don't stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my vibe right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it's raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad that it's fine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
[Just Fine lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
See I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
See I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

I ain't gon’ let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain’t gon’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It’s a really good thing to say
That I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
See I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
Don't stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my vibe right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

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I love this song. The music video is nice and look at her, she's so sexy! Don't you just love her?

Its Sunday and I woke up late. I think it was almost 10 in the morning when I woke up. I went to the dinning area to have my breakfast then went up to surf the internet. Around 11, my mom approached me and told me that I am the one who will cook for lunch. (waaah! i'm not prepared for this.) But since I haven't cook for quite sometime I agreed. I instruct our househelper to do the chopping and washing of the ingredients.

I really don't have anything in mind. I keep thinking on what to cook. So I make the Baked Cheese topped Cauliflower again. So I decided to cook the pork in a different way. (hmm.. anu kaya ang masarap lutuin na magugustuhan nila? ) I made up my mind and I've decided to cook pork and mushroom terriyaki. (sounds delicious eh?)

Here are the yummy pictures:

Hi guys! This is my first award here at my blog. Thanks to Tessa for giving me this award and to Miss twinkletoe for starting this.

start here: copy and paste and share it to your friends who's possessing some girl power

Well, I made this in Photoshop as our signature in Baldur Boards. Love you baby!
(He calls me Princess and he is my Tiger -- the one who protects me)
Rawr!

I had a bad day today. When I woke up, it was brownout. Err, mosquitoes are biting me. I am planning to go out to take away my boredom but I have to save up because I am going out this saturday with my boyfriend. (i am a happy girl eh!) So I just stayed at home then later on, PLDT came because I applied for their dsl internet. I am official switching from Globe Visibility to PLDT My DSL. I am so excited but too bad I got disappointed to the service of PLDT at first because I couldn't access my blog and other websites. Err, thats why I wasn't able to post here at my blog. Sorry. I just hope that my connection will be stable.

Lately, I wasn't able to cook because my aunt is here and that I have to be with her to tour her around. I feel like I am starting to get lazy in cooking.

Oh no! I love cooking and I love posting the pictures here at my blog. Err.. I will try to spice up my blog with the pictures of the food that I cook. Wish me luck. (sana hindi na tamarin!) Hehe!

Last Saturday, I woke up early to go to my boyfriends' house. It was too early and yet it was so traffic. When I get to the entrance of Cavite, there were lots of trucks that caused heavy traffic. We ate our lunch together then afterwards, we had our usual 'kulitans', talked about anything that pops into our minds. Then we had our afternoon nap. When we woke up, we went to his computer shop to prepare for Ragnarok Online's saturday siege. Well, that saturday was one of the importat sieges because we had our 3 guild vs 3 guild game. I enjoyed the siege even though I always get disconnected due to time gap. Err.. I didn't finish the game because a few minutes before the siege ends, I consumed all of my accounts' load. Hehe! After the game, we decided to go to SM Molino to have our dinner unfortunately after we left the house it began raining. Err.. we were riding a tricycle and the rain keeps hitting my face. hahaha! At first, he wanted to eat at Jollibee because he miss the chicken there but we ended up eating at KFC. After that, we hurriedly went back to his place because of the bad weather. It was raining harder this time and while walking back to his place, he took off his shirt and put it on top of my head. (How sweet) I told him to put back his shirt because he might get sick but he doesn't want to. (Errr.. pasaway? haha!) We rode a tricycle back to his place. My body is shaking from the cold. ( I easily get cold and sick.. Err.. my body is weak. T_T ) He hugged me tight. (sabi nia body heat daw yun. hehe) When we got back, we let ourselves dry and started chatting. Later on, he gave me a piggy back ride (aww!) and I think his mother saw us. ( I saw her staring at us. haha!) He kissed me a million of times because he's going to miss me. (we'll see each other the next saturday.. so those kisses were for a week. haha) At 9pm, we left their place and I went home with a big smile on my face. I had fun being with him. I'll miss him badly.

This past few weeks, I've been a bit inactive from my Entrecard. I know its my fault. I got lots of traffic before then when I start to get a little busy because my aunt is here for a visit and that I have to tour her around, I wasn't able to drop much cards. I just wish that this will not continue.

Its been 2 days since I last updated my blog. I've been out for a while and last night, my brother needs the computer so I wasn't able to update my blog. Err.. but I will try my best to update this sooner as I can.

Today is a special day for me and my boyfriend because its OUR BIRTHDAY, which means its our monthsary today and my boyfriend calls it birthday!

Here's a message for my loving boyfriend. (naks!)

Each and everyday I thank the God for letting our paths cross. You have been the most special gift that I have ever received. Thank you so much baby! Just always remember that my love for you grows stronger each day. Thank you for all the wonderful memories and also the bad ones for it made our relationship stronger.

I love you so much! *mwah*
Happy Birthday!

This is my entry to Evilwoobie’s Share Your Love Story contest. The story that I am about to share is about me and my current boyfriend.

It all started when I had a problem with my previous boyfriend. I kept on consulting my friends on what to do and as our usual routine we have this conference in Yahoo Messenger. The people in the conference were also playing Ragnarok Online. I was really confused then and I keep on asking advices on what to do. In that yahoo conference, I met him, my current boyfriend, and his name is David Tyron Sarceno. We used to call him Dats. He was then 26 and I was 22; he was living in Cavite while I live in Manila so the means of seeing each other is not that easy. We added each other on our messenger list and exchange of numbers. We then became good friends. He was like an older brother to me. He never fails to be there and gives me advices about love and life. Days passed, weeks passed and we got to know each other more and more. He then became my source of strength to my dying days. The days when I thought the world has turned its back on me but just like the quote that I always hear, “when God closes the door, he opens a window”, when everything turns gray, he gave me a special friend who slowly showed me how colorful and beautiful life is. I didn’t notice that my everyday became him and me. Days full of happiness and all the worries that I had were all gone. Slowly he became my life’s inspiration. Slowly we fell in love without knowing it but by just feeling the power of love. He was first unsure of what he feels because we haven’t seen each other. We just spend time through texting and chatting online.

Finally, the day came when we decided to see each other. He needs to go to Manila to meet our friend, Chio, to buy memory for his computer. We met up at Glorietta 4. I was nervous at first but when we started to talk to each other everything became at ease. We watched a movie then ate our snacks at KFC, there we met up with our friend. He was teasing us because he saw us holding each other’s hands. After that we parted ways. (I can’t remember if we go home together or we parted ways there) After that meet up, we became closer and closer to each other. We spend 90% of our time to each other over the internet or through texting. Friends slowly noticed our closeness and started to tease us.

Our second date was when I paid a visit to his computer shop. He couldn’t leave his shop that time because his mom went to Iloilo. He showed me his computer shop. It was closed that time because it’s too early. The then played a song in his computer and started to dance with me. The song was Remember Me This Way. It was weird but I loved it so much that I could still remember every part of that day. He also serenades me with the song Brighter then Sunshine by Aqualung.

Those were the first few dates that we had and it was followed by more memorable dates. Right now, we are still together, going strong and never stops to learn from each other. I am feeling so blessed that when a bad chapter of my life has to end, God helped me go through it by opening a new chapter of my life. And now, while the flipping the pages of the new chapter of my life, I’ve learned that God really never closes his door to us and that He is always there to listen and guides us. I am definitely sure about the saying that ‘everything happens for a reason’ and for every failure in life has a lesson to be learned.

I've seen a lot of blogs way back and never did I intended to make one for some reasons:

1. I am not good in writing.
2. I don't want other people to know my thoughts.
3. Blogging is like a personal diary that everyone could see including my family,relatives and I don't like that.

What is a blog or blogging anyway?

According to Wikipedia,

A blog (a portmanteau of web log) is a website where entries are commonly displayed in reverse chronological order. "Blog" can also be used as a verb, meaning to maintain or add content to a blog.

A Blog for me is an online diary where you can share your own thoughts and feelings freely. It can be seen by anyone who has access to the internet.

So WHY and HOW did I start to blog?

Last year, I learned how to cook. I always take pictures of them as a remembrance. I had an idea of making another Multiply account but then multiply is too big for one or two pictures whenever I cook then I thought of making a blog. I was hesitant at first but later gathered the courage to make one. I then started my first two posts. I got good feedbacks from my friends. They see my blog as an interesting one so there it got me inspired to post more.

Blogging has been part of my life. I just hope that as I open a new chapter of my life, I can still make use of my blog well.

Yesterday was one of the most special days of my life. Early morning, I went to Glorietta, Makati to have my urine checked for my pre-employment exam. The other day Yzel, the company secretary, called up and told me that I have to go back to Glorietta to have my urine checked because there was a problem in my urinary results. I was pretty nervous on what it is and I kept thinking ' what the hell this might be..' but then, my boyfriend told me that everything is gonna be alright and that I shouldn't think about it. So yesterday when I went there, they asked me to pay 200 bucks for the urinary exam because the company wouldn't shoulder it anymore. I asked the doctor about the 1st urinalysis results, she told me that they found an infection and that I have to have my urine checked again and if they find the same findings I have to see a doctor. I was worried that time. I don't want to get sick. I want to be healthy and I couldn't do anything but to pray for better results.

After Glorietta, I hurriedly went to Baclaran, Savers to ride a van going to Cavite. When I got there my boyfriend is already waiting for me. We go to their place and ate lunch. Later on, we went to SM Molino to watch National Treasure 2. I couldn't help but to look at him while watching. I know we won't be seeing much anymore when I start to work. I'm gonna miss him so much. After watching, we bought our dinner and went home to get ready for Ragnarok's siege. We ate our dinner together and played. I had fun spending time with him. After the game,he made sure that I'll be going home safe so we parted ways in our street near my house. Errr.. time flew fast and I just want to go back to yesterday. I wanted to go back there today but I know he has a lot of things to do and he have to work for his family. I want to see him over and over again.

Habambuhay
By: Yeng Constantino

Anong ligaya ang nadarama
Pag ika’y ksama na, puso ko walng pangamba
Pangako ko, pagibig ko iyong iyo
Saan man makarating, ikaw lang mamahalain

Habambuhay ikaw at ako ang magkasama
Sa hirap at ginahwa
Habambuhay sumpa ko’y ikaw lang
walang iba, Pangako ko ito
habambuhay…

Pangako ko
pagibig ko iyong iyo
Saan man makarating
ikaw lamang mamahalin

Habambuhay ikaw at ako ang magkasama
Sa hirap at ginahwa
Habambuhay sumpa ko’y ikaw lang
walang iba, pangako ko ito
habambuhay…

Mawalay man sa piling ko
Di magaalala
Pagka’t pangako mo
Tayo habambuhay…

Habambuhay ikaw at ako
ang magkasama, sa hirap at ginahwa
Habambuhay sumpa ko’y ikaw lang
walang iba, pangako ko ito..

Habambuhay ikaw at ako
ang magkasama, sa hirap at ginahwa
Habambuhay sumpa ko’y ikaw lang
walang iba, pangako ko ito..
HABAMBUHAY…

Habambuhay..
Pangako ko sayo..
Habambuhay..
Sa hirap at ginahawa..
Habambuhay..
Sumpa ko’y ikaw lang..
Habambuhay..
Pangako ko ito..
Habambuhay…
(habambuhay)
Haaaaaaaay..
(habambuhay)
Pangako ko.. Habambuhay…
(pangako ko ikaw lamang)

Habambuhay..

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Weee! Grabe wala akong makitang lyrics nian sa net ha.. pinakinggan ko talaga ito hbang tulog baby ko. Hihi! Song ko ito para sa kanya.. Love na love ko siya eh. mwah mwah mwah!

Yesterday was a very tiring day! We woke up early to go to my grandma's house (me and my siblings) then we all went to Duty Free AGAIN. I had to come because my mom asks me to buy something for her. Argh, I was in a hurry to leave but I couldn't because of my sister who wants to come with me and share a cab. (She has to go to school for a meeting) Its almost 4pm and we're just about to leave Duty Free. I was worried because my boyfriend is waiting for me. So after we left Duty Free, I asked my Uncle to drop me at Taft Pasay Rotonda and then I hurriedly go to his place.

I miss him so much. I don't know what to do when I saw him. When he hugged me, I felt like its been 10 years since we saw each other. Well I don't want to go into details but our date turned out to have a little misunderstanding. I couldn't sleep last night. I was waiting for him to come home. We chat and talked about what happened which is good. We settled everything before going to sleep. It was 5am when we slept. I love you baby. (He is the only one who can make me calm but just hearing his voice. Thanks for the call baby.)

Last night, he finally went back to Manila. He was suppose to come home today (from Iloilo to Manila) and I was suppose to see him at the Domestic Airport but then he decided to take an earlier flight.

We didn't talked much lately. Maybe I am still thinking what we talked about last Tuesday. I think I've adjusted a bit and I've noticed that I wasn't looking for him that much anymore. Such an accomplishment. I feel a little better now because somehow, I've accomplished a good adjustment for him not to get mad at me (and eventually leave me) even though I gave myself a lot pressure just to do this. It was very hard at first, my mind and heart is fighting on what to do but now, I am slowly overcoming my weaknesses. I know I've changed but not totally. I still have to undergo this long process. Good luck to me.

After a long wait and 3 days of going in NBI Carriedo, I finally got my NBI Clearance! Woohoo! I was so excited that I called up my mom and pretended that I haven't got my clearance. Haha! We were laughing about it after she discovered that I was only kidding. So I ride a jeepney to go to my Aunts' place. We were suppose to go to our house so she could use the internet and check something. We need my dads' car because she wants to bring the 'pasalubongs'. So my uncle and I went here at our place but I couldn't find the car keys. I called up my mom and asked her about it.

Phone rings..

Me: Mom.. did you see the car keys?
Mom: I left it at the round table near the tv.
Me: I couldn't find it.
Mom: I left it there its not with me. (in an angry voice)

She hang up the phone. After a few seconds, the phone rings again and when I picked up the phone, it was my mom.

Mom: Hey the car keys is here with me.
Me: I told you its not here.
Mom: Hehe! Just send our househelper to pick up they keys here at the office.
Me: okay.

My mom is always like that. She always forgets everything. Anyway, I couldn't blame her for forgetting her schedule is quite hectic lately. While waiting for our househelper, I've decided to cook something for lunch--- Braised Pork Spareribs. (YUM YUM!) Well, right now, I'm still waiting for my aunt and cousin to come over. I still have to check on what I'm cooking. Hehe! Ciao!

I went up early yesterday to pick up my NBI Clearance and to my dismay, after the long wait in the long line, they told me to come back at 1pm. I called up my mom and told her about it and she told me to go back the next day. I went near a girl who works there and asked her what's the problem in my clearance that I have to go back by 1pm. She just answered that they have a lot of things to do and my papers is at pending. I saw the guy that I was talking with last monday when I applied for the clearance. He told me he got his clearance right away. So I asked another girl who works there about it. She just told me to go back at the said time and asked me to leave. There's no loitering around so I have to come back. Just imagine, I was there 9am then they're asking me to be back by 1pm. Well, I didn't came back yesterday because I have to go with my aunt who is having a vacation here. I'll be going to NBI later.

My aunt, cousin and I went to Duty Free. My mom followed us there. My remaining time in the morning and whole afternoon was strolling around Duty Free. Errr.. I saw lots of chocolates. We bought lots of them. My aunt bought me a bag which costs around 100 dollars. (She is my godmother and she told me that she haven't gave me a gift for a long time.. so there) After duty free, we went to binondo area. We went to an optical shop to have her eyes checked and then afterwards we went home. I was so tired that when I went home I was so lazy to get out of the bed to play ragnarok for siege and that is also the reason why I didn't post anything yesterday.

I had a busy day that I didn't texted him much (my boyfriend). I only reply to his messages. I don't want him to get angry anymore. So I tried my best not to bother him so that he could enjoy his trip. Around in the afternoon, I told him what I felt about what we've talked about the other day. ( my post in day 4) I told him that I was so scared that he'd leave me and that I'll be doing what he wants. He told me not to worry because he's not going to leave me and he was sorry for what he said. (I am sorry too for being too possessive and being 'makulit' ) Throughout the day, I tried not to disturb him. Well, my day went well except the part when I went to NBI. I just hope that I'll get it today.

Written in this blog are my own thoughts and feeling. It may not be the same as the person/people involved in my post. I don't want to be bias about what is written here. Remember, there is always two sides of the story.

I may have written things that involves other peoples' feelings but remember my post may be the same exact words said / written by other people , it may be an excerpt or it may be just what I think about what they feel about the subject matter. Thank you!

Another Used to Be
by: Joe

I brought you here
So that I could express the things
I've been thinking about
Give me your ear
'Cause I don't normally do this
So bare with me through this
There are so many things that I wanna say
But let me start by simply saying I thank you
Darling just because

HOOK 1
I used to love someone that I didn't like
We used to wanna break up every other night
I used to think relationships were a lot of stress
I used to think that pain was a part of happiness
Now all that changed since you've come my way
But I don't want us to become
Another used to be

I hope what I'm saying don't discourage you in any kind of way
'Cause I do believe
You have a potential to be everyting I need
I hope that you can really understand
That I would hate to be with someone new
And tell her what I'm telling you

HOOK 2
I used to love someone that I didn't like
We used to wanna break up every other night
I used to think relationships were a lot of stress
I used to think that pain was a part of happiness
Now all that changed since you've come my way
Since you come my way
But I don't want us to become
Another used to be

'Cause it would only be a another waste of time
Another moment to erase out of my mind
Another memory a part of history
I can't forget it 'cause it keeps on haunting me
Now that you're here
It's evidently clear (I don't have to worry)
I don't ever have to have this worry again (again)

HOOK 1 REPEAT

Download the song here

Yesterday I told myself that I have to move on. I am not helping myself in anyway if I stayed this way. This morning, about 2 in the morning I received a text message from him that he just got home with his barkada. I then replied, so on and so forth. We exchange messages till 4 in the morning. (and I was up this 7:30am.. haha! 3 hours and a half of sleep)

Somehow, I now understand why he gets irritated when I send him messages but still I don't think its an excuse to everything. Yes, I get the point that he wants me to learn from his previous mistakes and that he doesn't want us to end up like him and his ex girlfriend. Throughout the conversation, I felt like he is looking for his ex girlfriend in me. ( I hope not!) I felt bad that it sounded like I am so immature in handling things. I know I am childish in some ways but I'm just looking for some attention and 'paglalambing' since he is far away.

I've realized things and got to know myself more in our conversation. (at merong mga reactions na .. ah ganito pla ako hindi ko alam..) But it takes time to change (kagaya ng pagyoyosi niya) and he shouldn't do it in a hard (painful) way. He even told me that if what I wanted. If I want him to do what his ex did to him to make him change -- that is to leave him alone. He said that his ex was successful in doing it to him. I don't agree to that, if you truly love a person you should fight for what you feel. You came into their lives and they're already like that. You can't just come and change everything and leaving your love one behind because of his or her bad sides. That isn't the best way. I don't think that everyone will have the same results as what happened to him. I love him. I know he loves me too. Thats all that matters to me and when the time comes that he has to leave me, I'd like to leave everything behind and be in peace. ( I hope that in wouldn't end up like this)

I have to move on. I know I can. Changing to a better me has to undergo a long process. I know I am not that mature yet. Someday I will.. and I know I will. But right now, I have to continue life and face the world of difficulties with a smile on my face. I don't want to be sad anymore. I have to be strong. Strong enough to face all the trials that is yet to come.

I am feeling bad but still I can create a piece of art. It may not look like a junk to you but to me every single art I made is important to me and I all call them ' art'. hehe!

I feel so sad that it seems like everything is against me. I wanted to look at the brighter side of things but I don't see any light. Darkness fills every corner of my eye. My family is the only thing that I could turn to when all is gone, now that we have a problem. I feel so useless. I couldn't repay all the good things they have given me. I can't do anything right.. err, how I wish I could find someone to turn to...

Tears kept running. Sadness fills my heart and I couldn't do anything about it. Weak. That's what I am. I wanted to be strong but I couldn't find any because the very source of my strength is the one who makes me sad. He may not be aware of that but his words hits me like a bullet and it feels like every word crashes my heart. ( hindi naman nia sadya.. pabiro nia kasi sinasabi.. pero nasasaktan ako.. sobrang nasasaktan.)
I only want him to come home.. i wanted to be there for him. I wanted to surprise him on the day he comes back. I was planning to cook for him and bring the food to their house. (I'll be the one to buy everything.. kahit wala na ako gaanong pera ngayon. Still, naiisip ko parin na gamitin un pera ko para i-surprise sya) But is seems like he is not coming home yet. Err.. how I wish his family lives here so that he will not have to go.


I just want to stay in bed. Die. And leave everything behind.

I am having a great day today. I was inspired in updating and renovating the new look of my blog. Everything was fine until this afternoon as I was walking around the computer room. My cousins' giant folder of blueprints fell then the orange pvc pipe (which is about 5 inch thick and was not properly cut with lots of rolled blue prints inside) fell and hit my left leg. I got cut a little and the wound keeps on bleeding. I just hope that it will not turn into a scar. It hurts a lot and I can't do anything about it.

Kai Xiao ( I am not sure if this is the exact pinyin of the word) is a Chinese word which means to let two people meet to have friendship that will somehow lead to future relationship if desired. It is also related to the Chinese tradition where the parents decide and finds a partner to his son or daughter to marry. This is a trend way back in my grandparents or even before them that was passed to generation to generation.

My lolo (in the father side) lived in China and met a Chinese business man who came from the Philippines (they migrated from China to Philippines). They became friends and got closed to each other. The Chinese businessman liked my Lolo alot that he wants to "kai xiao" him to my lola who lives here in the Philippines. He then showed a pretty picture of my lola. My lolo then fell in love with her and saved up to be able to go here in the Philippines. The two of them met through my great grandfather and they both liked each other. So the rest was history.

Nowadays, there are still people who practice this kind of Chinese tradition. They (the Chinese parents today) still believed that "kai xiao" is the best way to choose the best family for their kids. I know, they just want to ensure their kids future but why don't they give their kids freedom to choose. Whatever happens to their lives are their choice. The only role that they can do is to guide them if they are in the dark side of life.

So why am I talking about this "kai xiao" thing? Err.. last year, I couldn't remember when if it is November or December. When I came home, my mom told me that my aunt, who lives 6 units away from us, was looking for me. Her wealthy client wants to meet me for his son. Okay, I am not into "kai xiao" because I can decide on my own and besides someone own it right now. I kept murmuring and told my mom that I don't want to meet anyone. (Hmm.. they don't know about my boyfriend yet, because my family is kinda traditional when it comes to having a boyfriend. They wanted a Chinese guy for me. I am not particular in race. As long as I love the guy.. I'll love him as long as I can) They keep on insisting and I have nothing to do to object because the guy and his family arrived at my aunts' house. Err.. they guy was kinda weird and he looks like he just came from mainland China. I didn't even want him to be my friend (haha! i'm mean). Anyway, they just talked and talked and talked while I was sitting there. Every move I make, they are all looking at me. Err.. I hate that moment and I hate that they because it interrupted my siege moments! haha! (It was siege day when it happened, siege day in Philippine Ragnarok Online) Anyway, nothing happened good thing that the father wants a taller girl. He said that I was short. Err.. I am not short. I am completely contented with my height.


This afternoon, my aunt called up again. Err.. She wants to "kai xiao" me again to her friends' son. I told her that I am not interested but she keeps on insisting. Help anyone! Please hide me! hahaha! My boyfriend doesn't know about this yet (the second kai xiao). I hope he won't get mad because it wasn't my fault and I don't like it anyway. I just hope that my aunts' plan would change. She should choose my other cousins who doesn't have a boyfriend. I am way too young to get married. I still wanted to enjoy life and of course, enjoy being single.

I have been wanting to change the way my blog look but I have been very picky to the design. I wanted to customize my own banner but I don't want to look vain. Haha! So I used the original one.

This layout is from Carl's Blogger Templates and the Design is from Pixabella. Thank you so much for your wonderful design and layouts.

I woke up early this morning still I'm missing him but this time I understand his situation more. I just really have a hard time of letting my love ones be far away from me. I feel a lot better now.

Err.. I am still sad and feeling lonely today but its not because he hasn't come back yet but because of my family problems. I miss my dad. How i wish he was here with us. I wanted to be there for him in his down times but what can I do? He is a million million miles away from me. All I can do is to cheer him up in our small talks in the evening.

I'll just pray to GOD and leave everything in Him. My family and I will surpass this family problem. Hand in hand we will face lifes' challenges and just like Mariah's song..

"... I can make it through the rain, i can stand up once again.. on my own and I know that I’m strong enough to mend and every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it through the rain.."

My baby told me yesterday that I should be strong. He even got mad at me thinking that his stay in Iloilo is the reason for my sadness AGAIN. hehe! He didn't believed me when I told him that I have a family problem. I can't blame him. I have a lot of problems that I keep only to myself but yesterday, I badly need a hug and a shoulder to cry on.. but all I have is myself.

What You'll Need:

• 1 gal. strong coffee, allow to cool
• 1/2 gal, coffee ice cream
• 1 pt. vanilla ice cream
• 1 pt. heavy cream, whipped
• Nutmeg or cinnamon

Procedure:

• Blend coffee and half of the coffee ice cream to a fairly thick consistency.
• Chill in a punch bowl in refrigerator.
• When ready to serve, mix in ice cream balls made with the remaining quart of coffee ice cream and the vanilla ice cream.
• Top with heaps of whipped cream.
• Sprinkle with nutmeg or cinnamon.
• Makes about 20 to 30 cups.

What You'll Need:

• 12 oz. fresh mushrooms
• 1 clove garlic, crushed
• 1 shot vodka
• Olive oil
• Salt & pepper to taste
• Small container light cream
• Grated Parmesan cheese
• Lots of fresh parsley, chopped fine
• Pasta (any kind, desired)

Procedure:

• Clean and slice mushrooms.
• Saute in olive oil and garlic, salt and pepper. Cook until tender.
• Add vodka and cook until liquid evaporates.
• Meanwhile cook any kind of pasta you like.
• When pasta is cooked, drain, return to pan and mix in mushrooms and light cream.
• Cook until cream thickens
• Add grated cheese and parsley.
• Serve with extra cheese.

What You'll Need:

• Sprite
• grenadine
• Maraschino cherry (optional)
• Orange Juice (optional)
  

Procedure:

• Pour some Sprite into a cup and stir in a little bit of grenadine until it turns a light to a medium color red.
• Add a little orange juice (optional)
  
• Add a straw and a cherry to spice it up a bit, if desired!

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Wee! I love this recipe. We always make this at home when we have a little get together or parties. ^_^

What You'll Need:

• 24 Oreo cookies
• 1/2 stick butter, melted
• 1 qt. coffee ice cream
• Bitter chocolate, shaved

Procedure:

• Make crust of crushed Oreo's and melted butter.
• Press into a 9 inch pie pan.
• Chill until firm and fill with softened coffee ice cream.
• Garnish top with shaved chocolate curls. Freeze.
• Remove from freezer for a few minutes before cutting.

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Name: Dianne
Age: 22
Birthday: April 22, 1985
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Chinese Zodiac Sign: Year of the Ox
Location: Manila, Philippines

Schools:

• Preschool - Saint Mark
• Kindergarden - Saint Peter the Apostle School
• Elementary - Saint Peter the Apostle School
• High School - Saint Peter the Apostle School
• College - De La Salle College of Saint Benilde

Course: Bachelor of Science in Business Administration, Major in Information Services Management

Hobbies:

• Watching Movies
• Watch Television
• Hang out at the malls
• Sit infront of the computer all day
• Play computer games
• Cooking

Favorite Online Game: Ragnarok
Guilds:

• 1st Guild - Trojans
• 2nd Guild - Armada Goonz
• Other Guilds - Humahard Ka Ba? and Animal Lovers

Favorite Job Class: Biochemist
Other Jobs in Ragnarok: High Priest, High Wizard, Baby Swordie

Hey Guys! I am trying to give my blog a new look but since my brother needs to use the computer. I'll try to fix everything by tomorrow!

Good night! ^_^

I was in a hurry this morning to go to NBI Carriedo. When I got there, you can't go up the building because of the long line. So I asked the people where the end of the line is. I was walking when a fixer approached me. He was convincing me that he'll be the one to fix my papers I only have to pay 140php for the application and 300php for the employee that will process my paper. I said no but he kept on convincing me. There are also vendors who sells "cedula" , beware because this is fake. If you want to buy cedula, you can buy it inside the building of NBI Clearance center. It is located just before the stairs going to 4th floor. Back to the line, I was walking towards the end of the line when I noticed that I just walked for about 2 blocks from the building. Just imagine how long the line is. After that street, we entered another street for another 2 blocks of line. It was really hot awhile ago. The sun is so high and the slow process gives the people an angry look. So we went up the building, there was a line till we reached the 3rd floor. We had to pay 20bucks and proceed to the application area. I looked at the price list and I only have to pay 115php for my NBI Clearance. ( Lol. The fixer is over pricing. )


The Steps in getting your NBI Clearance are as follows

• 1st Step: The Payment
• 2nd Step: Data Checking
• 3rd Step: Quick data check
• 4th Step: Picture Taking
• 5th Step: Thumb marking
• 6th Step: The Filling
• 7th Step: Releasing

I was feeling bad because I lost my ID and I wasn't able to find it. When I was in the 6th Step, when i noticed that the guy getting the forms are just collecting them and he just stamped January 10, 2008 at the back of my receipt. When I got into the 7th step, the girl told me that, the release of my NBI Clearance is on January 10 because I have the same name in their record. Do they really check it? I was looking at the receipts of the other people at my back. And we all got the same stamp. I observed the guy in step 6th. He doesn't even look at the names. He just put the application forms in a box and stamp all the receipts without adjusting the dates. Oh well, Philippine Government it is! Poor service! Well, I didn't argue with them anymore because I am so hungry. Its almost 2pm and I haven't eaten my lunch.

A Few Tips on Getting your NBI Clearance:

• Bring Black Ballpen
• Bring Water and snacks
• Bring 2 Valid IDs (A copy of your NBI Clearance will not be accepted)
• Do not transact with fixers
• Do not buy cedula outside the building
• Be alert of your things. (mahirap na baka masalisihan kayo)
• Make sure you are on the right line (ang dami dami ko nakitang nasayang ang oras dahil mali yung pinilahan nila)

Payments:

First Pay is 20php at the cashier. She will hand you a ticket. DO NOT loose it. It will be collected at Step 2.

Application for Local Employment and Abroad is 115php. (yung iba hindi ko na alam! haha)


Good Luck Guys!

Luc and Kate at the airplane...

Luc said to Kate:
"You want to take back your fiance who found a beautiful girl in Paris and left you in America that's why you hurriedly take the flight and knowing that you're afraid to ride a plane?"

Kate replied to Luc:
"Know what Luc? If you really love a person, you will do anything to get it back. Even I'm afraid of riding this. Even you lost your money, clothes, passport, vitamins and even a single cent. Even there's no person who will help me and lastly, if begging is the only way, I will do it. Luc, have you ever fall in love with a girl?"

Luc replied to Kate:
"I have a lot of girls and I have no problem looking for it."

Kate's comment to Luc:
"Know what? With your statement and how I see your eyes. Now I know why a lot of people are not taking it seriously when it comes in relationship. They are afraid of commitment, that's why they don't fight for and risk their feelings for it and after one relationship it moves to another one."

This is quotation is taken from the movie: French Kiss

What you'll need:

• 2 1/2 cups milk, scalded
• 2 oz unsweetened chocolate
• 1/4 cup sugar
• 1 tsp vanilla
• 1/8 tsp salt

Procedure:

• In a blender, combine chocolate, sugar, vanilla and salt, with 1/2 cup of the milk.
• Blend until smooth, then add the rest of the milk.
• Serve immediately.

A Thousand Miles
by: Vanessa Carlton

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

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I'm missing him so much and I feel like his is a thousand thousand miles away from me.

Its the second day that he left. I am feeling lazy again. I just want my whole day to be in bed. I feel like I'm sick. I wanted to do things but it seems like I have no energy to do the things that I needed to do.

Check list for the day:

• Fix my SSS. I need to get a copy of my E1 form.
• Go to NBI (National Bureau of Investigation) and get a NBI Clearance.
• Go to Meralco to pay out electric bill.
• Pay our water bill.

Argh! I don't even know where I should get my NBI Clearance and the SSS. I am so hot tempered today. I even shouted at the person who is making prank calls this morning. I feel like I am being unproductive. I just wanted to stay at home and do nothing.

How I wish he was here. I didn't even login my Yahoo Messenger because whenever I see his name there... I miss him even more.

He is stranded there right now. I think the boat will leave in 10 am and he is there in the wee hours in the morning. Lol. How i wish he didn't have to leave. I hate myself for being like this. Errr.

Stranded = More days to stay there. And I bet he is more excited about it. T_T

Bubbly
by: Colbie Caillat

V1: I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

C: It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V2: The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin safe and warm
you give me feelins that I adore

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

B: What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V3: I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

C: It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while

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I heard this song awhile ago in ASAP and I couldn't help but to think of him. I miss you so much! (waaa! wala na ako mgwa kundi pakinggan to tuwing namimis kta. nsa cp ko na itong kanta.)

Brighter Than Sunshine
by: Aqualung

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

I got a feeling in my soul ... [repeat chorus to end]

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I remember him in this song too. He serenade me and sang this song. ( waaah! baby ko! uwi ka na! namimiss na po kita...)

Remember Me This Way
by: Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

* I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
(Repeat *)

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe
(Repeat *)

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I am missing him a lot. This song is very memorable to me. We danced to this song in his computer shop. Hahaha! Well, his shop was still closed at that time. Early in the morning, when the first time he showed me his computer shop, we were talking and telling stories when he suddenly played the song and asked me to dance. (waaah! lalo ko tuloy siya namimiss...)

It's Sunday and I feel so lazy. I feel so sad. I'm missing my baby. He left this morning to go to Iloilo, his fathers' hometown. He needs to make sure that his sister,Bess, will come back there safely and he needs to fix computers for his aunties.

I usually cook for my family during Sundays. But today, I couldn't I didn't even went up to bed when I knew that he already left. I started to feel sad. I miss him badly. I know I shouldn't feel like this. His only going to be there for a week. I am so attached to him and how I wish I am not. I want him to enjoy his trip but I couldn't understand myself that whenever I feel that he is so happy and excited about his trip... i feel so sad and lonely. I stayed at my bed and went up now (10:45pm). I am feeling bored so I thought of writing in my blog. I am somehow hoping that I'd feel a little better now.

I wanted to sleep and wake up on Saturday. I have a lot of things to do this week. I know I should focus my attention to more important things than this. But i couldn't help but to miss him so much...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
The first day of the year! I just hope that EVERYTHING would turn out to be just fine. Have a great day ahead!